July 4th

My favorite holiday.
Just a few short years ago, my house was full of friends and their families. Each year, all were gathered for food and drink and play with the other children.
Sparklers in the street, cartwheels in the yard, pictures to remember it all by.
This year I was home, just me and my daughter...so different from the years before.
As we sat together, watching the show from the houses around us, I was reminded of the "4th" in the first summer of my marriage. I stood alone in the driveway watching fireworks in the distance, after my husband declined to watch them with me. As I stood there, that hot buggy summer night, listening to the sounds of a faraway show, I allowed the tears to run down my cheeks. I was alone in my sadness mixed with joy.
This year, sitting in the canvas chair, watching with my girl in my lap, I felt her flinch in fear with each launch. She said to me, "I don't like the loud boom...but I'll suck it up, because I know how much it means to you." My daughter is an amazing little girl. Her words were a gift that meant more to me than she will ever know.
~L

Lately

I feel like I don't fit anywhere.

Beauty

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I am still alive...

and my whole world has changed since i last posted here.
when i have some idea of which way is up, i will consider getting back to My Own Life House.

i've run out of free time...

or i guess, i've just decided to use what i had for other things.
i haven't posted on here in such a long time! i thought i had forgotten my login.

so much has been going on.
A:
has turned 7 complete with skating party, lost/had pulled two front teeth, competed in a regional dance competition winning first place with her team! and qualifying for nationals...a different nationals than we will be attending. she has another competition coming up the end of this month in the city. and another the end of next month.
has been 'not well' for about 3 weeks now...cold, stomach issues, this week it's strep. :(
we've had something going on every weekend.
hectic, hectic...

E:
is considering changing jobs...anyone who has ever met him knows that he will, of course, be successful. but, the transition will be interesting.

me:
in week three of training for a half marathon. feeling great! feeling tired! having trouble managing my time to get my miles in and still see my family!
in lesson 6 of spanish 2; seem to be stuck on repeat.
i am so incredibly ready for summer...especially if it means that i will be 'off' of work.
my contract with my current job is ending soon and i'm still unsure how they will respond to that, if at all.
i've joined a social-networking website, only to find that there are a lot of people in my past that i wish i had never lost touch with; some that i think it will be 'too much' to try to keep up with; some that have made me remember things i had forgotten...what is the quote about letting sleeping dogs lie?

anyways, i hope to be making some time for posting on here again.
random thoughts
new music
things that make me smile

bbs
~L

What a waste...

This evening in barnes & noble, as I exited the restroom, I noticed a grown woman standing in front of the sink brushing her teeth. At first I thought, "good for you, taking care of your teeth..." then, noticing that she left the water running while brushing, I thought, "what a waste...". Now, I'm not one who's big on recycling, ozone and all the 'going green' goings on, but come on! Turning the water off while you brush...that's elementary.

Tonight, when I was almost home

i realized that I couldn't recall most of the drive. my thoughts kept
me distracted...entertained.

and now...

gas is a buck65. so, no excuses for not overspending this Christmas!

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Self portrait...

...at orange. Sorry Uncle C.

Where I am

gas is a buck 85.

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Today...

As I drive to work I'm going to sing so loud and strong that I'll be
exhausted when I arrive.

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As my boss always says, "Set your boundaries"

This was an IM sent to me from the guy across the cube aisle...having
overheard me telling my own boss how much I LOVE my job & how busy
it's keeping me lately & how much I don't mind that it interferes with
my home life.
anyway...as i was driving this evening, on my way to the grocery, a
thought popped into my head. i spend my entire day trying to make
people happy, only to come home and try to make my husband and my
daughter happy. don't get me wrong, i don't mean to imply that i do
so at the expense of my own happiness, we all know i'm selfcentered;
everyone should be ;)
and then, when i got home, i found an add that had come in the
mail..."you've taken care of everyone else, now let us take care of you"
i swear the universe is telling me to take some ME time. even if it
isn't, i'm going to believe that it is. :)

Test

This is only a test.

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Dove promises...

Do a little more each day than you think you can.

Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.

Happiness is contagious.

snippet of thought...call it a day dream. I admire you standing next to me.