"i love walking with you

and holding your hand, Mommy. I'll walk with you forever and ever."
It doesn't get any better than hearing things like that...simple, matter of fact.

Blow Pops

really are the perfect sucker...because they end with gum.

and spring...sharing pics

Rubbing her tummy and patting her head...

Such a poser!

Saved my favorite for last.

easter...sharing pics

i haven't done so in such a long time...

Truth...no dare

i'm struggling...i need a straight answer.
the truth.
tonight i wondered where this is going.
is it just a rut?
is it something that will be ignored for now
only to become something worse later?
is it me?
spring fever?
is it just for now?
expectations?
tell me what you want it to be.
if i can't make that happen,
if i can't be that person,
can i do enough?
is enough okay?
what about the tension?
the guilt?
the lack of desire?
the absence of mind?
absence in general...?
is history repeating itself?
am i sabotaging?
could i go back?
accept that?
what about her?
how far does it go?
how much is within my control...really?